Trying to Press "Publish" More Often
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It’s November 19th, 2024. I haven’t published any blogs here since July 14th. Before that, it was July 9th. Before that, it was November 3rd, 2023.
It’s not that I don’t write or have any ideas for pieces. I have plenty of ideas. More than I know what to do with (analysis paralysis). When one pops up (typically while I’m trying to focus on something else) I try to note it down for later. When I sit down to type out the words, they don’t always come to me. Sometimes they’re just not there yet. Most times there are these pressures in my mind that get in the way.
Every piece must be insightful and provocative…
This technical one needs to include prerequisite steps…
Not enough screen recordings here…
Too much rambling here…
These screenshots are blurry…
That linked source might be out of date…
These conclusions aren’t really that interesting…
Other people have already said this…
Need to add a certain feature to the blog first…
Automating this other thing would mean I can make this fancier…
So many other drafts to finish before starting yet another one…
Some of them come from self-doubt. Some are naturally occurring distractions in a brain that has a hard time focusing. Some are because I loathe being misinterpreted. Some come from fear of having vulnerabilities I share weaponized against me. Some from internal “perfectionism” (I don’t like that word but can’t think of a better one right now).
So here’s a post. It is whatever it is. It can be whatever someone needs it to be. It might be misinterpreted. Some might find it silly. I just want to find my way back to that pressing that “Publish” button more often.
Thanks for reading <3